yeay!

I'm so excited! This Friday I'm meeting with Brianne at Tender Loving Empire to discuss putting my little paintings in the store! Score!!

I'D RATHER BE...

Bleah. I don't want to go to work tomorrow. There's so much art stuff to do. And house stuff. I'd love to have a studio outside the house so I could lock myself away and not be distracted by dishes and laundry.

Before being on STD, I thought that I needed the schedule the keep me active, and the people to keep loneliness away. It was a 6 week test that showed me that I can be just fine at home alone. I loved the freedom. I loved being able to stay up late when I got inspired. There are so many projects I want to do- there's a backlog in my head. I have 2 projects in the making, plus 6 collages, another house series piece, 2 requested cityscapes to finish, more to produce for stock and new shows, plus communicating with cafes & galleries...

Work is a waste of time. I've been flagrant in my lack of caring about my job in my short 3 days back. I take long lunches, long breaks, play on the computer- it's quite liberating to not care! But I can't exactly get fired. Or quit. Yet. *sigh* I can handle being home alone, there's plenty to do, I can meet my friends for lunch, not be annoyed by the airheaded yappy people that surround me. It's like when I was thinking about moving out of Mulberry House. I knew there were parts of the experience that I still needed, as well as having the desire for the comforts of living with Jim. I wanted to move in with him, but the time wasn't right. Then there came a day when I realized that the balance had shifted, and I was okay to leave Mulberry House. The STD time gave me the opportunity to see that I'm ready to be away from the grey cubicle world. Now that the point has been reached, I optimistically have the feeling that the time to fly will be soon. Well, soon being less than another 6 years... My guess is within a year. That's a good goal to work on. In the meantime, I can enjoy the banter I have with Tina, and being close to my friends. But if there's an opportunity to move forward, I'll happily take it.

JUST STARTING OUT

I have a web page being built for me, I've shown my work to a REAL gallery (Guardino), I could have a show very soon at a popular pub (hopworks), I've been ok'd to be in a really cool little indy shop (Tender Loving Empire), and I just met an artist for whom I have much respect for (Trina Hesson). She's been in a slump and needs to come out, and I just need to keep reaching out. I feel like all the little baby steps are adding up to something more tangible:-)